My Head is Bleeding

Friday, November 5, 2010

My head is bleeding, it keeps on flowing out. I can't stop it anymore, I give up....let it flow out until it's empty, I can't take it anymore. It's making me crazy. Day and night is like hell to me.
Out of the sudden I wonder what am I doing, is this the path that I've chose? The path that's leading to my future?
If this is my choice I should keep on going right? But I don't feel like it now. My mind keeps on changing, one moment I say yes and the next I'll be throwing my books away from me.
I keep on walking but I don't see any results coming out.....I only see a blank piece of paper in front of me....my hand shaking.....my eyes staring...body shivering. What's this? Fear I say....fear....much worst than seeing a ghost, much worst than getting killed. I hate this fear......
But it's my fault for letting this fear coming at me...if only I started sooner....if only I listen to others..this..this...this wouldn't have happen to me.
It's crushing me, tearing me into pieces....into a trillion pieces. And leaving me behind, cleaning this mess that I've made...
Here I am still in this mess...still struggling to fix it....but there's a deadline that is 17 days, 408 hours, 24480 minutes, 1468800 seconds left for me....just what the hell am I suppose to do now?
No clue at all...........................................................................................................................................................
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